Miss you friend

why does my heart ache when i dont hear,
why does my heart cry when you are not near,
we were freinds then what made u go away,
was it necessary for you to choose the other way,


we had fun when we were together,
we enjoyed life when you were with me,
why did u choose the wrong path,
which made u go far away from me...


Miss you when i play song,
miss you when i drink tea,
nothing heard ,it's been long,
come back,listening to my plea..


you promised to be everytime i need
then why are u not with me now,
can't you read the eyes that keep missing you indeed,
what else do i need to show...


keep friends for long,
keep friends deep in heart,
they are the one who will be with you,
when ever you need,love my come and perish ,
friends will be there waiting for a smile to see...
you lost someone who cared,cried,and supported,
if possible come back ..cant wait for long..

when i compare childhood and now

when i was kid all mattered to me was,
what pencil color is best in market
but now i care more about what shoes is best,
I loved buying note book,
But now the notebook to me means as laptop..
I loved but stickers to cover my note book,
but now all i care about nail enamel to cover my nails,


for me rain meant as holiday,and rest at home,
now it means to sneak out for fun,
my costliest stuff was my school bag,
now all i know to have new handbags every month,
if wanted to communicate others wrote letter in school,
all i do now is text or call,


miss all those beautiful things did in childhood,
why do we have to grow,
why does our need changes...
was happiest  person when had all small little things
but today even have so much feels like have nothing


outing was with mummy and papa in a park..
today if outing means is all about which place to go...
we all grow but we all loose all little pleasure behind
which made our life beautiful..
those moment were i lived my life and never complained about..
today all i do i keep complaining..endless complain with life...
when was small a flower from garden was all now even a bouquet falls small when sent,
birthday was all about distributing sweets in school now birthday is about throwing party in a big restaurant...
where is that life where i was princess without doing anything...
but today everything i do does not make me feel good...


wish i still was kid...all little things would have made me happy,
no tension from life or about life,
all i knew was my bag,books,lunch box,my pencil holder,sharpener,eraser...
homework was on priority today priority is to have best
dress in town,best lip gloss,hand bag and shoes...and still i am not happy because the demands endless...


wish i had a time freezing machine would go back in time 
freeze the time when i was in school..where life was with friends..
and never grow...
life would always be beautiful for me...

childhood fun

innocence

foot forward ...

Happy Birthday Dear Rupali

A very beautiful morning to all...!!
this morning is special..
Its birthday morning for my lovely roomie,who is recently married to a very nice and caring husband...but the sad Part is she is not with her husband on this special day ,
because both of them work,
She works here in Hyderabad and her husband works in Mumbai...
till last night i remembered her birthday is today but when it was 29 it did not strike on my head that its
Any ways when i came home in the morning 4'o clock yummy cake was waiting for me,
had the cake,
and wrote a note to my friend which said
"Happy birth day honey,
i did not forget your birthday but could not wish u on time,
getting breakfast for u from out side have the breakfast and go to office,,,
and may god bless you with all the happiness...
love u sooo much"


came home and now trying to sleep...
will blog more once i wake up....


love you dear friend and may ur birthday bring loads of happiness in life...

Happy birthday baby

new life

Another beautiful morning approached...
pouring the love of shower...
The smell of soil has started coming ...
No where the sun can be seen...!!

this morning has promised me much...
have to go office have to see the same old faces again...
i am tired and bored seeing those faces,i am in no mood to work,
Why do we have office when it rains???
Simply love the weather feel like going for a ride,
some where near the country side,
Feel like just being out whole day and night and to enjoy this lovely weather..

Last night had the most wonderful night was out of my house,
went to my friends place,Had dinner and did watch movie for some time..
after that we hit the roads ,because the weather was nice though it was not raining but the cool breeze just made as go around...

the best thing about last night was i was with my special some one... that made it more beautiful...
simply happy...
and i love this feeling of being happy....

and the morning made it look better because it rained..
i love when it rains...
and that is why don't feel like going to work because i love the rain...

Hush...!! pack up time ..have to sip my tea and take bath before i get too late for the work...No matter what but we all cannot avoid work and can't i,
Wish this moment just stops and i could stay enjoying weather,sipping tea and writing a blog...

A new start

Sunday morning approached...woke with a sipping cup of tea..Nothing could refresh you more than a coffee or a tea in the morning...
listening to my favorite track by 4 Non blond "whats going on" 
this is what this song say


25 years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the whole world's MADE UP OF this brotherhood of man
FOR whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take A deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs,
What's goin' on

And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on

Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...
Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...

And I try, oh my God, do I try
I try all the time in this institution
And I pray, oh my God, do I pray
I pray every single day FOR A REVOLUTION!

And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs,
WHAT'S GOIN' ON!!

And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on

Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...


must be thinking what happened to this girl.... even i don't know what happening...
some time do feel being girl is a curse...


You tend to hurt loads of people and don't even realize u hurted them...
this is what happened to me last night...
i Broke with a dear friend of mine...
Had to take this step for the sake of my friends suffering...
Never realized if You talk to some one nicely it keeps hurting other...
never realized your sharing things would be taken in different sense... That's what happened and so i have a question to my self what's going on?
Love is one thing that can make your life beautiful and when u don't get it...that love does make your life hell... 
I never realized i tried being friends and just by doing that i kept hurting some one badly...real Bad...
Never knew some one whom i take friend would ever fall in love with me...
Hush....!! why was it required...life without was love was fun...
once this thing came in picture things changed,...


Everything i did was a pain for the other...!!
every single time i Hurt him more and never knew i kept hurting Until few days back...


I thought i will stay away in order to make his life better...
But again  i kept hurting ...
And asked only one ques what's going on???


I talk I hurt, if i don't hurt him more
Don't really know what should i do...
left with an uneasy feeling...
Is it a crime if I am Girl???
Is it my mistake if i don't feel the same as he does...
Then why all the time i have to suffer because of his suffering...


Finally just decided i am being bad either side so why not be bad by not talking...
and after listening to this song i have come to conclusion....
I cannot fool some ones emotion any more let me hurt him a little more...
let me stop talking and at the end things will all be fine..!!!


In hope of things getting settled




P.S.


I never meant to hurt you,
never thought i would do,
i tried being your friend for long,
but have to end it here ..
cant see u suffering..
cant let u loose faith in you..
Hope someday when we meet we will love and not hate each other...!!
Take care

i am so broke

I am so lonely broken angel,
come and hold me in your arms,
let me feel your heart beat,
and let me be lost..


every time i write,
i hope u might read,
u may feel the pain i go through,
some where down and deep..


come and save me, i am lost,
come and hold me, before i frost,
come back to me, i need you,
all i can say is i badly  miss you...


i want you in my arms,
want to hug,
love you like crazy and will endless do...
with all my love i am waiting for you,
come back to me I miss you

every day i wake up in hope to be ,
every day i sleep in hope to see,
every sip of tea i feel,
this moment just freeze
and you will always be with me..
for now and for ever...

How do i dream my house to be

While on face book, i thought to search some thing,
some thing that might be different,and happened to see different kind of house...
And then i just wanted to see the dream of my life to have a very beautiful tree house in my garden...may be not huge but yes i want to have one,..


I love nature and feels if i have a tree house may be i will be more connected to nature .. and can feel nature in me...


few snaps that i have taken from site uploading .. just to keep reminding i want to have a tree house some day.. a beautiful and maverick...

modern tree house

sweet tree house

beautiful house

Happy Father's day

You,loved me when i wanted to be loved,

you cared when i needed to be,

you took me in your arms when i wanted a hug,

you,orated stories when i was scared to sleep,

you ignored all my bunkums,

you gave all i wanted without even a question,

you took to all my favourite places,

You,called me princess,you played with me like a doll,

you,took me to school when i was scared to go,

You were there when i was scared to walk,

You,cried when i was sick,

you,were awake when i had my exams,

when i moved to hostel,you never told but i know u always cried,

called me every day to make me feel you were always there,

For you i am always an angel,

For you i am your life,

I love you so much,

I know you love me more than what i do,

May be this life would be short to say,

You are the best,

Thanks for being my Dad,

Nothing could be better in this world,than You,

I love You dad, and wish you a very happy father's day to you,

all i wish is to be your daughter,

all the birth i take...!!

and just wish my wish to come true..!!

Comment Inbox - Blogger Help

why cant we always be happy,

why does the heart ache,

why do we feel sad when you don't want to,

why feel alone when you are in the middle of road??

why does it hurt so much...

If any one has the answer please help me...!!!

why does it hurt so much...why do i feel alone,

why i don't smile when have everything i like,

why i cry???

I love you

You never knew how much I  love you

You'll never know how much I  care
Do you want to know some thing

Do  you,promise not to tell, 

 let me whisper in your ear

Say the words you longing to hear

I'm in love with you, ooh so much i am in love...!!

I want to grow old with you

I want make you smile
Whenever you're sad
Carry you around
When your suffering is bad
All I want to do is
Grow old with you.

I'll get you medicine
When your tummy aches
Build you a fire
When the furnace breaks
It could be so nice
Growing old with you.

I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control

Let me do the dishes
In our kitchen sink
Put you to bed
When you've had too much to drink
I could be the woman who
Grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

piya say's: few sketching i did

piya say's: few sketching i did

let me just dream

i had a dream last night
saw the one i love the most
i never thought that dreams know what iwant
i wanted was you
and look what i could see you
what if not in person but
yes in dream

dream where you are all mine
have no boundation
and nothing is crime
can be all time with you
can be just looking at you

Your resence made me feel im in seventh sky.
please let me dream for ever and never wake
coz i am afraid if i wake,
you will not be round..
mere thought of u in dream,
makes me feel happy,
let the world wake,
and let me just dream...

I miss you when you are not around

why do the wrold cease when you are not around,
why do i feel pain when i dont see thee,
i have answers to my question but keep repeating,
may be in hope some day u might realize,
You,make me complete,
You bring smile to me,
You make thing easy when i find hard to bear,
You just make me feel me,

Why is that u have to be so far from me,
why am i anguished,
The more i try to calm,
i feel the pain when u are not around,
Please don't leave me when i need you most,
Come back to me,come soon.

Every breath i take miss you,
every time i see mirror i miss you,
I miss u deep,like a faddist
please come to me,
cant live for a moment without you,
hope just when you come u find no one,
can't take the pain and don't blame yourself when i am gone,
Please come soon before its too late to see...