A new start

Sunday morning approached...woke with a sipping cup of tea..Nothing could refresh you more than a coffee or a tea in the morning...
listening to my favorite track by 4 Non blond "whats going on" 
this is what this song say


25 years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the whole world's MADE UP OF this brotherhood of man
FOR whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take A deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs,
What's goin' on

And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on

Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...
Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...

And I try, oh my God, do I try
I try all the time in this institution
And I pray, oh my God, do I pray
I pray every single day FOR A REVOLUTION!

And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out, what's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs,
WHAT'S GOIN' ON!!

And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on
And I say hey.... hey....
I said hey, what's goin' on

Ooh, Ooh, Oooohh, Oooohh, what's up...


must be thinking what happened to this girl.... even i don't know what happening...
some time do feel being girl is a curse...


You tend to hurt loads of people and don't even realize u hurted them...
this is what happened to me last night...
i Broke with a dear friend of mine...
Had to take this step for the sake of my friends suffering...
Never realized if You talk to some one nicely it keeps hurting other...
never realized your sharing things would be taken in different sense... That's what happened and so i have a question to my self what's going on?
Love is one thing that can make your life beautiful and when u don't get it...that love does make your life hell... 
I never realized i tried being friends and just by doing that i kept hurting some one badly...real Bad...
Never knew some one whom i take friend would ever fall in love with me...
Hush....!! why was it required...life without was love was fun...
once this thing came in picture things changed,...


Everything i did was a pain for the other...!!
every single time i Hurt him more and never knew i kept hurting Until few days back...


I thought i will stay away in order to make his life better...
But again  i kept hurting ...
And asked only one ques what's going on???


I talk I hurt, if i don't hurt him more
Don't really know what should i do...
left with an uneasy feeling...
Is it a crime if I am Girl???
Is it my mistake if i don't feel the same as he does...
Then why all the time i have to suffer because of his suffering...


Finally just decided i am being bad either side so why not be bad by not talking...
and after listening to this song i have come to conclusion....
I cannot fool some ones emotion any more let me hurt him a little more...
let me stop talking and at the end things will all be fine..!!!


In hope of things getting settled




P.S.


I never meant to hurt you,
never thought i would do,
i tried being your friend for long,
but have to end it here ..
cant see u suffering..
cant let u loose faith in you..
Hope someday when we meet we will love and not hate each other...!!
Take care